My brain is going a million miles a second trying to distinguish what I want to be true and what is true. It's that age old tyring to get my emotional pain body to stfu and seeing a situation for what it really is. So the basis of everything is that I an extremely over reacting "extremely" being the cautionary adjective to describe my ever present crazy mind. Words thoughts phrases grammar scratch that. Who ready needs a period anyway. This us what you call free writing just letting your thoughts hit paper or in this case keyboard without thought or judgment and then it's that lag to hit publish should the thoughts swimming in my head be published and do I have the courage to back then up that is the question. For now i'm running in empty no emotions no feelings no attachments so I can properly let go of theses conflicting and disturbing thoughts colliding in the vast space that is my mind and allow myself to experience something amazing. For now this is the first publishing from my phone and I'll probably go back on my laptop and correct this but u kinda like it that it's one long ass run on sentence.
Its always a glorious day, but sometimes its colored in grey.
